Showing posts with label God's Hand.. Show all posts
Showing posts with label God's Hand.. Show all posts

7.24.2012

Now upon a tine.


I've been meaning to do this for some time. Back in mid-spring I could tell I was approaching a fork in the road, so to speak. Normally I dawdle, hem and haw, and drag my feet when it comes to decisions. Except for this time. As I saw the fork approaching, and I made the decision before I got there. The result? Ever since then my priority has been doing what God would rather have me do. Thus I've been busy doing everything else first, with negligible time for my writing, and thats ok. Of the two main projects, and the two side projects, three were just for me, and one was for God.
You may be asking yourself, How could my God be so selfish as to demand that a writer put aside her craft and do anything else?
First off, because he gave up his only Son to die, specifically because of the things I've done, for the off-chance that I'd not only recognize his gift for me, but that I'd accept said gift.
Secondly, because he didn't ask me to put aside something I enjoy for something I hate. I put aside my writing, which I didn't do 8 hrs a day, to do other things I enjoy. My church has been through a rough patch during the past 4 years. One of the symptoms of the problem, we no longer had the funds nor ability to put together a VBS. This year we were once again able to do so. Mid spring a good friend of mine asked her if I'd help her out with the small area she was responsible. I'd helped in years past, was familiar with what was required, was able, and wiling. So I dug in, knowing I'd be handling the lion share, under her direction. Why was I handling most of the work, because my friend is getting married in Oct, secretary of our church, helping with translation work for some French Missionaries, helping her brother with his website, helping her other brother with more translation work, helping with the typesetting of the Samoan Bible, the Tagalog Bible, and consulting on a handful of other small projects. In other words, chika muy busy. Eventually, she handed the rings over to me, which I didn't mind one bit. Oh, also forgot to mention, she'll be teaching typesetting1 and 2, starting in September.
Thirdly, as I previously mentioned, I didn't spend all day, everyday writing to begin with. One of my side projects is in collaboration with another individual who is going through college. Understandably, he's got other things on his mind. Project # 3 was spurred by a series of short writing prompts that just fell into place as a story about alien invasion. I do absolutely no prep work on it. An image shows up, then characters, plot, locations, and dialogue seem to appear in my word doc. This venture comes in flashes, and is over and done in under an hour; frequently in a matter of minutes. My second writing passion is my part in the Niners Shared Universe, aka the Ninerverse. A few writers from the io9 observationdeck got together and put together this scifi epic, it has time travel, space travel, cyberspies, military security types, generation ships, teraforming, and space pirates. My part, The Adventures of the Scarlet Slash involve the life of a young woman who finds herself between a plethora of plots to take over the known, and unknown universe. When the antagonist uses the rules to tilt the balance of power in his direction, she breaks them with every trick in her bag. I have fun with this story, My protagonist is a character who's personal motto is "Cut me and I'll cut you back. I'll also do something else, but where's the fun in telling you what?" Her story flows like water from a spring. If I took the time to sit down and knock it out, I could probably get 3 or 4 more chapters in a day or two. However, her story is only part of a larger plot, and I don't want to steal others thunder by saving the day in her arc, before you know just who it is she is saving. So I set it aside, and will probably get back to it soon enough. The last project, the one that gets the majority of my time, effort, and thoughts, is City of Walls. This one is my pride and joy, yet while Scarlet flows quickly like water, this story has by very blood, sweat and tears. For all that I love this story, it treats me like a red-headed step-child. We come to blows, and I feel like I'm flailing against a wall. I stumble against writers block, and when I ask for help or feedback, I get responses for the Scarlet Slash. I know the Ninerverse tale is the most exciting, but the account of Tara Harris is one that I've been working on slowly for almost 15 years. Critical moments, characters, the ending, and beginning is what I started out with. Currently I have fleshed out the beginning, introduced all the characters, except for two, and hit one of the five major moments of the story. I try to make this one as hard on the science as I can. Interestingly, a few of the concepts that I figured were near future breakthroughs have been achieved, or are on the edge of accomplishment.
Now I find myself in a bit of a conundrum. There is no fork in the road, nor a spoon, yet all the other tasks that have been taking my time seem to be complete. VBS is done. I'm not needed to help with many of the ministries at church any more. My yard is now presentable, since my garden is complete. I have time again.
So, should I then prepare myself to do battle with my worthy opponent? I consider this essay, which sits just above 1000 words, a warm up.
Yes Virginia, there will be stories.

1.27.2008

The hand of my God

Today, as I walked out the garage, I saw a deep dense fog. At first the fog was eerie, even scary, I had been expecting it to be cold and damp out. Noises were muffled, quite. Visibility was at a bare minimum for driving safely. But it was warm, close, quite honestly, safe. It made me think of this song.
I Know Who Holds Tomorrow
words and music by Ira Stanphill

        I don't know about tomorrow,
        I just live from day to day.
        I don't borrow from it's sunshine,
        For it's skies may turn to gray.
        I don't worry o'er the future,
        For I know what Jesus said,
        And today I'll walk beside Him,
        For He knows what is ahead.
            Refrain
            Many things about tomorrow,
            I don't seem to understand;
            But I know Who holds tomorrow,
            And I know Who holds my hand.

        Ev'ry step is getting brighter,
        As the golden stairs I climb;
        Ev'ry burden's getting lighter;
        Ev'ry cloud is silver lined.
        There the sun is always shining,
        There no tear will dim the eyes,
        At the ending of the rainbow,
        Where the mountains touch the sky.

            Refrain
            Many things about tomorrow,
            I don't seem to understand;
            But I know Who holds tomorrow,
            And I know Who holds my hand.

        I don't know about tomorrow,
        It may bring me poverty;
        But the One Who feeds the sparrow,
        Is the One Who stands by me.
        And the path that be my portion,
        May be through the flame or flood,
        But His presence goes before me,
        And I'm covered with His blood.

            Refrain
            Many things about tomorrow,
            I don't seem to understand;
            But I know Who holds tomorrow,
            And I know Who holds my hand.
Pic# 18

1.25.2008

Good Quote

“Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.” - Oscar Wilde
So does that mean I'm just left overs?
Honestly, I like being myself. It truly is a good Idea to be yourself, being someone else can be trying, as well as an easy cop-out. Being yourself can bring such a flavor to life.
In the Holy Bible, Jesus said "Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men."

I know many Christians who are very interesting. I count it a priviledge('sat spelled roight?) to be a part of the family of God. It is also a priviledge to know my numerous odd, and outlandish traits accepted.Picture #17

11.19.2007

Day 4

Yeah, I know that quite a few days have lapsed in between day '3' and '4'. I've been busy, but not even doing NaNoWriMo. I did get 377 words down, about 1 days work. And then the nitty-gritty of daily life came flooding back in an unbeatable tide. Laundry, dishes, vacuuming, 8 1/2 hour work days, cooking, and trying to do God's will for my life. I need to change the order in which I do things, get back to God first. I started this post with the thought in mind that I'd post this picture.I think of it as..
"Please sir, I'd like some more."
I had just feed the dog, and he took a bite. Hubby just came home, so dogie had to go and see if he had any better. For quite some time our dog just followed him down the hall, expectantly waiting. In stead of putting just that paragraph up I feel more needs to be said. Like the dog getting distracted, I've let other things get my attention away from God. I need to make God my top priority again.

8.08.2007

365

Let me explain, 365 is the number of days in a year (duh right). A project(?) for digital camera users is to take at least 1 picture day for a year, thus letting them pratice taking pictures. I know, I should've said that yesterday, but I did start yesterday. So from now on, I'll at least have one post a day up.
There are many things a day I'd like to capture, I've wanted to go digital for sometime now, and now that I have the opportunity, I find myself not pressing the shutter switch. Yesterday I saw something great, a firetruck with a large American Flag tied behind it so it could flutter on the wake of the truck as it rolled down the roadway. But I didn't take the picture, didn't even have my camera out. Life has an interesting way of explaning itself to us in the simplest ways. An oppurtunity in front of me slipt away, because of my inaction. How often have I lost God's oppurtunities because I didn't say or do something?
For now, let's just see what develops over the next year.

7.11.2007

lost



He raced onwards to the fastly fading light. The rays of the sun leapt ahead, leaving behind only shadows. He struggled to keep ahead of the darkness, but the night was sweeping in on him.




For anyone who has actually read my past entries, you know I've center on a particular character for awhile, but I stopped to hone the story a bit more before putting more out here. Right now I feel like that character. The exerpt above takes place in the story at a point in time which has not been revealed here. I feel like him because I'm trying to stay in the "Light", on my path, or just plainly-by my Savior's side. However, I'm not sure if I am following my own head and desires, or His will. When in the dark, its hard to see your way. You stumble and get lost, you have no way to navigate. Am I in the dark? in the light? or in the twilight, soon to be overcome by shadows if I don't get moving and hurry back into the daylight. Only God knows, but I must find His path.

I use this picture because I like the light and shadow, it relates context and vision for me.

5.16.2007

I've been thinking

Yeah, I even know your response, Don't hurt yourself.
Lately I've felt that I need to turn from my own ambitions and recenter myself on God's path for my life. 'Cause quite honestly, His plan for me is much easier for me, than the convoluted mazes my simpleton brain conceives for me are. ( is that sentence comprehensible?) As a result, I've stopped my writings. Not altogether mind you, I've been working on something that I hope represents God, and reveals him to others around me. But I haven't been posting online, because more and more this blog became an arena for the wonders of yours truly. It hit me tonight after church, along with a few other bricks of import, that this unnoticed little blog can be used to God's Glory, if I give it to Him. The other bricks were every other aspect of my life.
And so I pray.
My God, My Heavenly Father, I want to do your will in all that I do. I pray that the promise you gave in Isaiah 55:11 So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I send it.
Lord I pray that you work on the hearts of the people who read this prayer, and I pray Lord that I will have the opportunity to communicate with them. I thank you, My Saviour, for all the blessings I have recieved. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.